Month: October 2010

A Life to Remember

~ Kandyce ~ 8 Comments

I wonder what it would have been like to see your smile every day, to wake up on a Saturday morning to find you sitting on the couch in pajama pants and a white t-shirt, staring out the window

I wonder what it would have felt like to run and jump into your lap, lay my head on your chest and listen to – feel the cadence of your heart beat

I wonder what new ideas or business ventures would have been swirling around in that magnificent head of yours as you sit and think

I wonder how you smelled, what type of cologne you liked.  I wish that I could take that old white t-shirt you wore on Saturday morning, put it in a glass box, and preserve the scent of you forever. 

That way, whenever I started to miss you, or needed your advice, or just wanted to be close, I could pull it out and find immediate comfort in knowing that you were right there with me.

I always wondered why my grandfather was so fond of you.  Why he always asked me about you.  Why he felt it important to remind me of your good heart, your honesty toward him, and your pleasing manners.  He must have seen something great (pure, trustworthy, admirable) in you because a man impressing him was no small feat.

My friend and her dad danced to Stevie Wonder’s You Are the Sunshine of My Life              I wonder what our song would have been                                                                                    Oh, I know!  I Loved Her First.  It’s a little bit country, which makes it sweet enough for the moment, but tough enough to let him know that you were there first

I wonder what characteristics we share.  Well, not really.                                                           I know I have your lips and nose.  I know I have your passion and imagination.  I know we both long for freedom, loathe being told what to, and desire to chart the course of our own lives. 

When I wonder what I can do to honor your life, the only thing I can think of is to fully live mine:

To harness all the passion and zeal you had to fulfill your dreams to ensure mine come to pass                                                                                                                                                     To never become bridled by the status-quo                                                                                    To be true to myself and the gifts that God has given me                                                             To dust myself off and try, try again if at first I don’t succeed                                                     To love and give out of the abundant treasure of my heart                                                           To learn everything I can about you and share it with my children, grandchildren, and many generations of great-grand’s                                                                                                    To bind the memory of you in my heart                                                                                          To know that you loved me and are always with me

Love,                                                                                                                                                      Kandyce

I’m Changing…

~ Kandyce ~ 7 Comments

Monday Morning Series – Welcome to the Good Life

 Everywhere we look, the leaves are morphing from green to magnificent shades of red, burgundy, orange and yellow. As the number of daylight hours continues to wane, so does the health of the leaves. Some of these leaves have already fallen to the ground – eventually, they will all fall. Those fallen leaves will soon decompose and restock the soil beneath with nutrients needed for growth in the Spring. 

Last week, as I spent time reflecting over my life in the mountains of North Carolina, I began to see my life in the beauty of those trees. You see, I turned 30 two weeks ago and indeed, the tapestry of my life is changing. This Autumn season, I too must shed some leaves…allowing some things, people, habits to “fall” away to prepare for growth in the Spring.

There are 22 weeks until the Spring season of growth and expansion, and I have dedicated to address all three parts of my being during this next season: Mind, Body, and Spirit. For each area of my life, I will commit to shed 1 unhealthy aspect and replace it with something healthy.

  1. Mind                                                                                                                                                           Shed – My Television                                                                                                                    Gain – An expanded view of myself and the world through reading
  2. Body                                                                                                                                           Shed – 50 pounds by March 20, 2011                                                                                          Gain – Skills in learning to care for my temple. 
  3. Spirit                                                                                                                                             Shed – Tradition                                                                                                                           Gain – New ways to approach my relationship with God

I will share specific details on how I plan to reach each goal later today.

As I share my journey with you over the next 22 weeks, I invite you to journey with me.  I would love it if each of you would join with me, but if I could just get 3 to5 dedicated people to join me, I would love to share your stories of transformation at the end of our 22 weeks.  Each Monday morning, I will report on my progress…and hopefully encourage you along the way.  Wow!  I’m really putting myself out there…wish me luck!  If you would like to join me, respond to this post or email me at Kandyce@diaryofagolddigger.com.

Stay tuned for a new series release each morning…I haven’t completely decided how I will format each day, but Thursdays will definitely be humorous “Musings on turning 30.”  And since we’re always Thanking God It’s Friday, Fridays will be “Grateful.”  

Thank you for taking this journey with me and I look forward to growing together.

Humbly, 

Kandyce                                                                                                                                               Chief Gold Digger