Hey there! I’m Kandyce and welcome to my Diary.

I am a seeker…a truth teller in black and white. Introverted and shy, I used to be afraid to speak the truth, to challenge the status quo, to blaze my own trail. Thankfully I left her prim ass back in 2005!

Or so I thought…

It may be more appropriate to say that I’ve been slowly letting her go since 2005. I’m still an introvert, a beautiful part of myself that I’ve come to embrace wholeheartedly. Shy? Not so much. But just like gold before it is mined, I have been invisible for most of my life. Tangled in a web of others expectations, fear and insecurity, the purest part of my self has been buried…to a large extent, even to myself.

The past nine years have been a careful unraveling. Layer by layer, in partnership with God, we have peeled and cut away at the superficial surface to ultimately arrive at my core…my truest, rawest, most authentic self. I liken it to the gold purification process, whereby the gold is heated to an unconscionable temperature to separate the gold from all of the impurities. In the end, the weightier gold settles and remains while all of the unnecessary attachments rise to the top to be sieved away. Likewise, I had to go through my own refining process to separate my valuable core from all of the crap I had picked up along the way.

crap¹

/kraep/

noun

1. false beliefs
2. insecurities
3. fears
4. childhood emotional trauma
5. mental abuse
6. abandonment
7. bad relationships
8. rejection
9. etc.

You see, my transformation has been just that…a process. Diary of a Gold Digger is my way of sharing with you my transformation process and the life that I now live as a result.

Word by word, line upon line, gaining the courage to share my life through this blog is my Emancipation Proclamation…my Ode to Freedom.